I like sharing what I write, mainly because I like to hear what people think, no matter if it's good or bad. This past week I had to write another topical essay for my English class, and I present it to you to read. Hope you enjoy it, and if you don't, then still leave a comment of your own opinion on what you think I could improve on.
I know first hand the struggles that Elizabeth Wong wrote of
in her essay “The Struggle to Be an
All-American Girl”. For me, it was the smell of the locker room still gets to
me. Sweat, grass and mud, mixed with dirty laundry, and covered with what
seemed like an atom bomb of about 18 different colognes from the teammates
trying to cover their stench up after a game, it still gets to me. FOOTBALL CAN
HAVE ITS GREAT MOMENTS, BUT FOR A PLAYER LIKE ME WHO RODE THE BENCH, IT CAN BE
A VERY LONG SEASON.
Dad wanted me to play. I wanted to play. However, I never
realized how much pain and work I’d have to throw into ‘playing’, which seemed
ironic to me. You need work in order to be the ones that could play. After the
excitement of the first few practices wore off, I started to get lazy about
showing up on time. The coaches never took notice of my rep-work when I snaked
my way through the line of wide receivers going out for a post pass, or a
stop-and-go run. As much as Wong wanted to be in her Chinese language class was
about as much as I wanted to be on the field when I realized no one was paying
attention to me, yet paying attention their already star players. Even as Wong
says “I had better things to learn than ideographs copied painstakingly in
lines that ran right to left from the tip of a moc but” (24), I felt like I
had better things to be doing than running mindless plays, if I wasn’t going to
be coached on catching the football wrong or stepping the wrong way.
As Wong states that she sat in a auditorium room with chairs
and bad smelling Oriental odors and dreamed of ‘better’ countries and what they
had to offer, I sat in a old and smoke filled room with my team mates and
coaches watching films from previous games. I couldn’t stand the smell of the
defensive coaches’ cigarettes. Waving his hand around in front of the projector
screen, I worried he’d eventually burn a hole through it with as close as he
got to it. He’d yell out a player’s name, and complain about things like a
teammate dropping passes, or not tackling correctly. These guys were twice our
age, and ten times more competitive than we were. I suppose that’s because they
couldn’t play, and wanted to live through our own glory.
As I started my own season, I had to finish it, per an
agreement made with my father. But that doesn’t mean I didn’t hate it all the
way through as much as Wong hated her Chinese class and talking to locals in
Chinatown. As my own season ended in
November, I rode the bench and got a handful of plays in when we would be up on
an opponent by thirty plus points. Yet at the last game of the season, coach
started me. He said that he watched me be patient and wait my turn, and decided
that I deserved to play. Finally, I was someone who could be counted on for the
team.